On Motherhood: Mornings like this

It's been one of those mornings.

The ones where I muster all my strength to stop myself from screaming at my kids.

The baby mashes his face against my breast, desperate to nurse, but then won't stay latched for more than 15 seconds.

The toddler disagrees loudly with any and every suggestion.  No, not those shoes!  No, not wear this shirt! Evelyn want to brush hair!  No brush hair!

It's been one of those mornings.

On Motherhood: Judgement

“Being a mother is learning about strengths you didn’t know you had, and dealing with fears you didn’t know existed.” -Linda Wooten I was afraid.  When I brought my daughter home from the birth center, I was terrified.  Not overtly.  Not openly.  Not wide-eyed and pale skinned.  But beneath all the joy, excitement, fatigue and…

On Motherhood: Silence

I have one child sleeping and another off with her father getting some groceries.  The house is quiet.  Which, as any parent knows, is rare.  I don't know that I really understood 'quiet' before I had children.  Frankly, now that I have them, I'm not sure I understand how to handle 'quiet'.  Nonetheless, I find…

On Motherhood: Fourth

The fourth trimester.  The first 12 weeks with baby.  I always assumed pregnancy and labor were the hardest parts of becoming a mother.  Turns out, no.  The breastfeeding, the hormones, the sleep deprivation, the anxiety; the sheer physicality of those first 3 months with a newborn is more intense than 9 months of pregnancy.  I…