Photo by Skylar Kang from Pexels "I've been sleepwalkingBeen wandering all nightTryna take what's lost and brokeAnd make it right"-From Burning House by Cam This song snuck back into my life last night. In my raw softening sadness it brought tears. I keep replaying it because I need these tears. But I want to say, the sorrow doesn't…
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Tea for Two
Photo by Tatiana Syrikova from Pexels I am not an easy person to love.I am not an easy person to love.I am not an easy person to love. This is my story. Or rather, it is A story that I repeat to myself. If you know me, you know that I listen to a lot of podcasts and…
The Center
"I want you to go forth into the world with this new information. And I want you to transform the people around you with your joy and vulnerability. I want you to let grief wash over you so that you may be reborn over and over again. I want you to build the canoe to…
For Erin
I wrote this piece for the funeral service of my dear sister Erin. She passed away suddenly. She was 42 years old. I cannot even comprehend all the ways in which I will miss her.
A letter to my father about tomatoes
Dad, There is no good way to start a letter to your dead father. I could say that I miss you. I think of you ever day. I wish you were here. But those truths are so obvious they border on mundane. They are truths that apply to many people and places and moments now…
Blocked
Photo by fania yang from Pexels I want to let you know that I am blocking you. I want you to know that it has nothing to do with your politics. It has everything to do with the way in which you feel entitled to invade my virtual space with negativity and criticism without ever asking me a…
Llamas and old journals
There was an article in the NY Times recently about how llamas have extra antibodies and, in one study, those antibodies have proven to be successful at defeating COVID-19. Apparently llamas are superheros in the world of antibodies. They have two different types of antibodies (where humans only have one). They have a regular antibody…
Three questions
What are you passionate about? It is a loaded question. The first implication being that passion is missing. It implies disapproval. That the passion is misguided or unacceptable. It says, maybe you think it's passion, but it's not. It says, you won't go anywhere in life without passion. It says, you don't seem to love…
Ignorance – Part 1
"Beware. Ignorance protects itself. Ignorance promotes suspicion. Suspicion engenders fear. Fear quails, irrational and blind. Or fear looms, defiant and closed. Blind, closed, suspicious, afraid. Ignorance protects itself. And protected, ignorance grows." -Octavia E. Butler, from Parable of Talents There is an unwillingness to recognize ignorance. An unwillingness to admit it. To accept it. It…
an unintended hiatus
Hello friends! I apologize for being a stranger these past several weeks. The month of May took me by surprise in a few ways and as a result, my attention has been pulled from this hallowed writing sphere. Well, I'm back. Because I've been missing you. Because I've been missing the feel of the keys…